The word “pride” immediately conjures images of inflated egos, fools, and complete narcissists. Often it is mistaken as vanity or a self inflated ego and is commonly referred to as “the root of all evil” in some philosophical and religious beliefs. It’s difficult to express pride of the self without actually having a good sense of self acceptance and being able to differentiate between inflated egos and undervalued sense of self.
I’ve put some thought into this post as, like anyone else, I don’t want to come across as egotistical or narcissistic although when I do reflect in the topic I’ve done things that I have every right to be proud of, even if it does mean I’m gloating a bit!
I take a great deal of pride in the person I’ve become and the life I have made for myself. Once riddled with anxiety, depression, and insecurities I’ve seen myself improve significantly now with occasional periods of depression, the rare attack of anxiety, and my insecurities are diminishing as I age! I’ve become comfortable with who I am and rather than being instantly defensive when it comes to others I am more able to open and engage with others.
Of course I still have my struggles but I am now able to recognise them as part of this person I have become so proud of rather than wallow in a pit of despair and self-doubt over these things I feel people will dislike about me. I think the pride comes from my ability to recognise changes in myself and feel more comfortable with myself. I have worked so hard over the years to improve myself so why shouldn’t I feel proud of me?
I’m 26 years old working in the specialist area of psychiatric nursing I have always dreamed of! I’m getting married to the love of my life and we own our own home. From someone who could barely imagine having any future I have managed to overcome my own darkness and claw my way up to this person I am today!
The one thing I can confidently take pride in is me. I have overcome depression, anxiety, and disordered eating to become this confident(-ish) young woman who has built her life. From being someone who detested my own company to this person who thrives on spending some time alone.
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